the pitfalls of questioning.

This message was shared by a friend of mine earlier today… and needless to say it hit me like a ton of bricks.

Yesterday I had a mini-meltdown.

I was sitting in my kitchen, laptop on, notebook open, pen in hand. I was planning on spending the afternoon creating content and working on my FUEL plans.

As I sat there… that is literally all I did. I just sat. Blankly staring at my computer screen and notebook. Trying SO HARD to find the creative inspiration to work on the program my coach and I have been discussing for weeks.

I sat there for a good two hours. Trying to force myself to write something…anything down on my paper.

Out of nowhere, a flood of emotions came over me. I burst into tears. I was SO frustrated with the fact that I literally could think of NOTHING worth ANYTHING to keep the momentum going with my plans.

As driven and motivated as I am, I find that I easily get discouraged.

I feel like I am constantly in a state of QUESTIONING the logistics of HOW to manage everything, WHEN and HOW I am going to find time to be creative, and WHY would people really want to work with me?? I beat myself up for not feeling creative, and for not utilizing the very little free time I DO have to get shit done. That, in turn, slows me down, gets me upset, and ends up derailing my WHOLE day…it is exhausting.

BUT, then I step away, take a deep breath, and I think about my message… my story…my INTENTIONS for WHY I want to do this work. I know my message is meant to be shared. I know my story WILL help people. I know I cannot ignore my calling to HELP as many people as I can.

That feeling alone is liberating. That feeling is what WILL keep me motivated to keep working my ass off.

So my lesson from yesterday, is just allow things to happen without always having to know the answers. Always be patient with yourself, and show youself LOVE when things arent going as expected. Remember your "WHY" and keep the end goal in mind and things will fall into place EXACTLY as they are meant to.

confidence program pitch.

The last thing we all need is another mainstream “quick fix” promising to help us get our lives figured out.

Exercise doesn’t have to be hard, nutrition doesn’t have to be complicated, and trying to figure out WHO YOU ARE shouldn’t scare the s#!t out of you.

Trust me, I’ve been there.

For years I struggled with…well… ALL OF THE ABOVE.

I let my INNER CRITIC get the best of me. I questioned who I was and what I truly needed and wanted out of life. I got caught up in an “all or nothing” mentality when it came to exercise and nutrition, and found my health and my happiness going in a (accelerating) downhill spiral.

I knew there had to be more to life than how I was living… going through the motions, “living” day by day stuck in routines that were taking me NOWHERE fast.

So it hit me…

I needed an outlook readjustment. I needed to redefine what “health” looked and felt like for ME. I needed to break free from my INNER CRITIC and rigid habits.

I NEEDED to change if I ever wanted to be happy, healthy and truly LIVE.

Over the years I have done extensive personal work around the ideas of confidence, self image, creating healthy relationships with food/exercise, and just living a life I am EXCITED about.

I am in the process of planning a program around the ideas of establishing healthy routines, dealing with the dreaded inner critic, and finding balance in life.

I am looking to talk to 10 people who are looking to work on any/all of the areas above. I want to create the best program I can, addressing these topics in as much depth as possible. If this is something you find interesting, or are currently struggling with in your life, please send me a PM, I would LOVE to get your input.

Do you ever feel embarrassed or "selfish" for taking time for self care?

I am someone who has always struggled with the need to justify myself and/or my actions… even when it was related to self-improvement.

I felt the need to explain what I was doing, why I was doing it… as if giving some sort of detailed explanation would make everything "OK"…...

Can you relate?

My advice to you… STOP IT…NOW!

So many people spend WAY too much time judging the actions of others, before spending an ounce of time looking at their own situation. So please, never let another person, no matter WHO they are, make you feel insecure about doing something FOR YOU.

Keep doing what you're doing… because you are doing just fine ;) See More

you are a big "dill".

Happy Tuesday!

Yesterday I posted about being in a funk... I'm not sure why that was, but I let my attitude and bummer self weigh me down a good part of the day.

Today- I am reframing my mindset. I am accepting that all days are not perfect and the fact that it is OK to not be on your A-Game at all times. I am focusing on my work, my goals, and practicing patience with myself...

So that, for me, is a big deal right now :)

Tell me...what is it about you (or what you are working on) that is a big deal? (Its ok to brag about yourself, you know?!)

feel the fear.


Are you tired of playing it safe all the time? Are bored of living on auto-pilot? I know I am.

Take a minute to reflect on a typical day for you.

Think about your habits... your routines... your thought processes... everything that you encounter on a regular basis.

What does that look like for you?

When you take a moment to sit back and actually think about HOW you go through each day... how do you feel?

Are you HAPPY? Does what you experience bring JOY to your life? How about fulfillment?

If the answer is YES… well, I am EXTREMELY happy for you!

If the answer is NO… maybe it is time to do some reevaluating.

Think about ways you can change things up. How can you throw a curve ball into your regular habits? How can you step outside of your comfort zone to experience something new?

Be willing to do something that SCARES you every once in awhile. You never how it could impact your life!

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same; there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.” - Eric Roth

PS. I am working on a program around some of these ideas. If you're interested, send me a message....lets chat

my "ah-ha" moment.

This was the quote that sent me to treatment.

Two years ago around this time, I was sitting in my therapist’s office.

I had hit a LOW point in my life.

Externally, things were great.

Beautiful home, AMAZING boyfriend, great job, wonderful friends and family… and I can’t forget two crazy loving fur babies Dack & Dexter.

Inside I was a mess.

I was so caught up in my restrictive eating and my anxiety was unbearable.

I constantly thought about food and working out… no joke… it was CONSTANT.

My life had become so rigid with my patterns and habits I just couldn’t take it anymore.

Deep down, I KNEW I was strong enough to overcome my struggles. But for TOO long (roughly 10 years) I had let the negative influence - my eating disorder - control my life.

I needed to do something DIFFERENT if I was EVER going to be free.

“If you keep doing what you’ve always done, you’ll keep being what you’ve always been.” My therapist said to me, as I sat in the big arm chair across the room.

So at that point, I made the scariest, but bravest decision I have made.

Two years ago, I made the decision to leave my home, my love, my dogs, my family and friends, my job, etc. to do something DIFFERENT to get my life back.

I left my comfort zone, bought a one way plane ticket and moved across the country to get help.

I had no idea what to expect or when I would be coming home.

All I knew was that I was “sick and tired of being sick and tired” and I was ready to channel my inner bad ass and do something that scared the crap out of me.

My ego was telling me I was weak... I was a loser... I couldn’t change. I was embarrassed to tell my family, my boss, my friends what I was doing.

But regardless of how weak/scared/embarrassed I felt, I had to do it… and I did.

(This story is "to be continued"...)

The point of this message, is YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Regardless of what you are working towards in your personal life, no matter how big or how small, you deserve to be HAPPY, HEALTHY & FREE.

I challenge you to think about something in your life you would like to change.

What are you doing to change it? If you continue to go through the motions and stay on the same path, will that lead you to your goals?

Or do you need to do something brave, and step out of your comfort zone a little?

Think about it.

I’m here if you need me

Is your mindset keeping you from reaching your goals?!

I'm guilty of the "YEAH, BUT" mentality. What the heck is that you ask? For example: I have a goal/dream/vision in mind... I am ALL FOR going out and chasing it... When I finally get some momentum going, my inner critic chimes in and says "YEAH, you can do XYZ, BUT _____ will happen. So you should probably wait, and overthink about it for awhile".

Sound familiar?

I have some WONDERFUL mentors in my life right now (you know who you are ;) ) who are pushing me to challenge myself and have faith that these opportunities to shine are not only RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE, but are also extremely realistic and achievable.

So my challenge for myself, AND YOU, today is to have faith in yourself and your abilities, go after the things that you love and believe things will work out!

Confidence is contagious <3

PS- did you see my defunk guide?! If not, check it out HERE!

PPS- did I mention how much I appreciate you